goodbye bali hai

When I first started this blog, it was a place for me to vent, as I was going through a bad patch in my life. After a while it evolved to a bland online journal of sorts, a record of the things that I do, places that I visit. But now, it seems like I only update my blog when I'm pissed with people.

This blog has gotten from bad to worse!

Anyhow, it is already almost end of October and last weekend we closed off diving season in Tioman since monsoon is around the corner.

I have two more working weeks and then we are off to the place where I truly truly can find solace.... Mabul - Sipadan!

kera jongos

So earlier this evening mah Betch BBMed me, "Noks, ngape ko gaduh ngan si KJ pulak dah?"

And last night one of my girls Tweeted, "apasal kau gaduh ngan dia? Of all the tweets he has chosen to reply yours. I wonder..."

I even got a "WTF? Apo dah jadi?" from Brother Bear.

Yes people, I got dissed by the great Khairy Jamaluddin.

And the statements above showed the disbelief of my friends when in fact, KJ got pissed at me. I am in all honesty, a non-political working mother with children enough to fit an MPV, and whose favorite pastimes at home are cooking, Glee and CSI. To de-stress I go scuba diving.

Now what, pray tell, can a mere nobody do to piss KJ off. Honestly, not much.

It all started last night, when I read KJ's Tweet addressed to G Palanivel,

Khairykj Khairy Jamaluddin
Jadi Menteri terus bunuh bakat muda? Wassup @GPalanivel? RT @mkini_bm: Setiausaha Pemuda MIC digantung 12 bulan

And I thought OK, that's not a nice way to address someone of that rank. But hey, Twitter is where people can express their views, in ebonics or Thug-speak or even Rempit talk. Who cares.

Then I saw this on my timeline:

SangSapurba Wan Mohd Shahrir
Eloknya @Khairykj tak perlu campur urusan dalam MIC.

Khairykj Khairy Jamaluddin
@SangSapurba Saya Pengerusi Pemuda Barisan Nasional. Faham?

Ergh. By this time I was like.. ooohkkaaayyyyy... what's up with this guy? And in all honesty and out of my curiosity I'd like to know what Gawd almighty power does this Pengerusi Pemuda BN has that gives him the green light to sound like a prick. And so this ensued:

jasmeenz Mrs SeaDemon
So? RT @Khairykj @SangSapurba Saya Pengerusi Pemuda Barisan Nasional. Faham?

I suppose just by that one word SO? I pressed the wrong button. He went apeshit (no pun intended).

Khairykj Khairy Jamaluddin
@jasmeenz If you have to ask that question, you don't know anything about BN. Unless was a cheapshot out of hatred. Typical.

jasmeenz Mrs SeaDemon
@Khairykj My family are BN supporters so it can't be out of hatred. It could be out of disbelief at yr recent Tweets.

Khairykj Khairy Jamaluddin
@jasmeenz No, I doubt that. I know where you're coming from. Not difficult to figure that out.

jasmeenz Mrs SeaDemon
@Khairykj apasal you paranoid sangat ni lah!

It ended there.

What do you think? PARANOIA MUCH? I would very much think so. Those two Tweets are just lines of accusations that first, I hate him (or BN) and second I'm this manipulative person that has a hidden agenda. He also assumed that I did not know anything about BN, which is quite an insult. And to add to that, even after I said that my family members are BN supporters and that I was in disbelief over his Tweets, he refused to believe me!

I doubt that he's gonna read this blog, but if he does, when I asked SO? I was expecting him to give me an intelligent answer like, "Because the Pengerusi Pemuda BN can bla bla bla bla..."

Hey, I expect that from an Oxford and UCL grad! Aku ni pergi Jock school je kat US, mana la pandai nak berkata2 macam KJ.

I have a lot more to write but I don't want to waste my energy on such triviality. How do I feel? Initially I was pissed because of the way he replied to me but then again today as I stirred the Mee Bandung gravy in the pot an hour before iftar, I felt sad.

I felt sad because when I first read about KJ years ago, I thought here was the intelligent, Lelaki Melayu Terakhir in UMNO and maybe, just maybe, this will be the turning point in UMNO history. And even during the Sleepy Dwarf's era when KJ received a lot of bad rap, I gave him that slight benefit of the doubt.... So whenever people diss him in my mind I secretly wondered (oh but he's so well-learned, and intelligent there must be something good about him)

And today I am completely disillusioned. KJ is in fact, deep down, a REMPIT after all.

annoyed with self-centredness

Some friends you tolerate, some you love but tolerate their shortcomings, and some you just drift away from.

Over the years, friends will develop some traits that you dislike, but heck they're still your friends. And sometimes the trait has always been in them from the day you first know them but this trait will amplify itself as we all grow older.

I suppose my pet peeve (besides the sensitivity thing) is also people who are self-centred.

These people think that the world revolves around them. It's okay to THINK that way. But it's not okay to act it out.

So go ahead, you can have that imaginary throne up in your head. But please, in a decent communal surrounding, do think of others and their right to speak their minds and share their experiences.

the rule of sensitivity

I don't know whether I am grouped in the "sensitive" people category or not, but personally, I don't think I am.

Well sometimes I am, but I'd rather keep it to myself - all the sentaps, all the terasa hati, terkecil hati what not. Because I know things are said in jest, or at times when one is angry or sad or temporarily insane.

However, just as like everything else in this weird world, most sensitive people are NOT sensitive to other people's feelings. Here we are trying to act a certain way, hold our tongue lest we utter something offensive, watch our tone lest we inadvertently go a notch higher - just to please them and not hurt them. Then they turn their backs on us, and roll us over with bulldozers.

I hope I don't become like them.

a mother's day afternoon

So it's Mother's Day.

I've always celebrated with an SMS wish to my mother, and that's about it. Because most times, I am not with her during Mother's Day. And to my mother figure, my late Maktok, Mother's Day was never 'celebrated'.

But this year, more than ever I miss my late Maktok. The family has lost its grand matriarch and personally, I have lost my 'mother' - the person who brought me up and became my shoulder to cry on, in later years.

Things were never the same since her passing in 2008.

Boy it's a hot afternoon. The kids are away with my ex, my stepdaughters are here (Hana visiting over the weekend). The Diver is taking a nap, after Tweeting how depressed he has been after weeks of not going diving. Other than that, it has been quiet.

Quiet, and a bit melancholic.

sticks and stones

...may break my bones / But words will never hurt me

Now that's certainly not me. I'd take sticks and stones any day.

In my previous marriage, I was emotionally and later on physically abused, although for a short period of time. If you ask me today, if I remember being beaten up or not or whether it had hurt or not.... I can barely remember anything. I couldn't even remember where and how I was hit.

But I still remember the nasty things he said about me. Every consonant, every bit of it.

Like I said, I'd take sticks and stones any day. And on that note, I wish all Mothers out there a Happy Mother's Day. Love yourself, and then you'll be able to love others unconditionally :)

snobbery hobnobbery

Too much snobbery is going around these days. And funnily, it can take on many shapes and forms. Macam2 la.. ada food snobbery, brand snobbery, work snobbery, music snobbery even friendship snobbery. I know I'm guilty of some... and I hate to admit it, but as I get older I try to come to terms with it and discard all these negativities.

Well, probably my pet peeve is food snobbery. Don't you just hate it when someone says "Oh, I don't eat any leftovers, doesn't matter 1 day ke 2 days keee..." Now let me ask you something... TAK PERNAH MAKAN KAT KEDAI MAMAK KE?? HELLOO??? Last time I checked, this person thoroughly enjoys having roti canai at mamak shops. And please, if you're on a diet.. and you don't take rice or whatever.. don't go "Ewww.. Rice?? Oh I stay away from rice, it's fattening" while someone is enjoying their nasi campur with gusto. That's just plain rude. If you don't eat a certain type of food, and find is disgusting to your taste buds.. just SHUT THE FUCK UP WILL YA?

Oh, one more pet peeve (byk plak pet peeve aku nih) friendship snobbery. All these talk about oh I am friends of anak so and so or bini so and so Tan Sri, Tun, Dato' Seri bullshit drives me up the wall. I MIGHT be guilty of mentioning this sometimes but hey, most of the time it's just fact-stating and not a form of showing off. Some people will go on and on and on and namedrop whoever they could just to earn points and look good, and some even stoop so low and do this just to get into exclusive clubs. Pathetic.

Lest we go down the depressing road. Let me end with this snippet of Cik Kam, which relates to friendship snobbery, in a way. Kalau tak relevant pun korang baca je lah.

Cik Kam frantically waves at me, and shows a piece of flyer:

Me: Apa tu? Seminar?
Cik Kam: Ha.. kau tak nak gi ke Seminar on (something i can't recall) and kau tau tak yang jadi Speaker dia ni ha.. ni... Yang Mulia Raja beb... kau tak kenal ke ni, cuba tengok...
Me: Raja Nazrin ke? Raja Petra?
Cik Kam: Err.. Raja Mohamad.. apa ntah ni.. tak kesahla tapi dia Yang Mulia tau!! Yang Mulia!

Turned out it's just some obscure dude with a Raja title. And Cik Kam thought he was some kind of a celebrity royalty just because of the Yang Mulia.

Sekian.