underneath it all

Is a relationship healthy when your partner does not divulge necessary information to the other?

I can hear a resounding NO in my head and it echoes through the lobes of my brains and rings out of my ears like the screams of a woman in labour.

I would not say my relationship with The Diver was based on lies. That is not entirely true. I know for a fact he loved me, and still loves me a lot. We crave each other's attention when we're apart, we stalk each other's Twitter accounts. The world shuts down when we are alone, together and we are set adrift on this ocean filled with memories, emotions, things we love and share. Sometimes, in the car, we silently sing the same melodies in our heads.

Us, being alone. Just us two. There is magic in us no one could every understand.

Yet there is a thorn in all that. A pesky, poking thorn that prods and jolts every now and then. A merciless thorn borne out of malicious intent.

So he chose not to disclose. To keep me happy, to keep us together, to keep the love alive.

At times he lies, and I let him. I could have asked him to prove things, but I know he couldn't. For instance I could have asked him: "Send me a picture of where you are." But what good would it do if he had lied? I hear the unsettled whispers of people out there... but dear readers please, do not judge me.

Is this transient? Will the lying stop when you weed out the thorn and throw it away forever? Will this be a fleeting moment? This is certainly not healthy, but does this work? WILL it work?

Only time will tell.