Shame on me...

Shame on me for only doing one posting each month. Ha ha! Anyways, I didn't realize that it's already May... and coming to middle of 2007.

I think 2007 has been an eye-opener for me. First of all, I love my new job although I have to take my laptop home to do work at nite in between CSIs. Secondly, I realize that I finally learn to say no to people, and to open up more so that people understand me more. Especially opening up to my dad on the problems I have, finally, after 32 years on this planet. Third, I finally caught up with my long lost school friends and we're having this monthly all-girls get together!!! So much fun!!! And finally finally, telling people what I really want instead of just adapting to situations. This has been my ultimate forte all these years. But the downside of telling people what you want is that you won't exactly get what you want in the first place, then you end up being dissapointed with them.

So telling people what you want is actually good or bad?

meebo me

i need...

1. A vacation with ****** (just kidding) i changed my mind -- A vacation with Jude Law!!!
2. Lots of money to buy nice pants - I noticed all my pants make me look fatter than I am
3. A tub of Ben & Jerry's (Chunky Monkey)

And i will be supremely happy...

my first day

Today is my first day in JB at a subsidiary that I am transferred to.

So I'm now doing the commuting thing 2-days-here-3-days there kinda thing. The work culture is different (it's quite cool to come into an office filled to the brim with water technicians). My cubicle is bloody open - right next door to the (see-thru) conference room - meaning that if there's a meeting in there my derriere will be their view. How crappy is that.

Worse of all, this gut-wrenching feeling of missing xxx is driving me bonkers. I try not to think about it but when I do, it makes me want to just throw up and die.

So now the plan is to move the kids (and hubby eventually) to JB. (that god it didnt happen - 17th May 2007) My uncle says that this is good because it's a new environment and it will make my married life better. Frankly, I'm just doing this so that I don't offend anyone. That's just me - I'm always afraid of people getting offended by my actions...

This self-imposed politeness will only lead to my unhappiness. Too much of a depressing thing. Not good.

Happyness

I am happy
...when I am alone with the kids
...after a simulating conversation with ?
...waking up on a Sunday morning thinking that I don't have to go to the office
...just being me

mixed emotions

Its Friday morning and a normal human being should be looking forward to the weekend. But not me definitely. I'd rather be at the office doing work... That's what kind of freaking deviant I have become.

this one is from old blog...

Had too much to eat at Lunch. Funny, it was half a sandwich from Dave's Deli and now I'm bloated. Usually I'll do my blogs after 5 pm when all is said and done. But today I just have the urge to type, and type and type. Which reminds me.. *will get back to you* an article is waiting