the rule of sensitivity

I don't know whether I am grouped in the "sensitive" people category or not, but personally, I don't think I am.

Well sometimes I am, but I'd rather keep it to myself - all the sentaps, all the terasa hati, terkecil hati what not. Because I know things are said in jest, or at times when one is angry or sad or temporarily insane.

However, just as like everything else in this weird world, most sensitive people are NOT sensitive to other people's feelings. Here we are trying to act a certain way, hold our tongue lest we utter something offensive, watch our tone lest we inadvertently go a notch higher - just to please them and not hurt them. Then they turn their backs on us, and roll us over with bulldozers.

I hope I don't become like them.

a mother's day afternoon

So it's Mother's Day.

I've always celebrated with an SMS wish to my mother, and that's about it. Because most times, I am not with her during Mother's Day. And to my mother figure, my late Maktok, Mother's Day was never 'celebrated'.

But this year, more than ever I miss my late Maktok. The family has lost its grand matriarch and personally, I have lost my 'mother' - the person who brought me up and became my shoulder to cry on, in later years.

Things were never the same since her passing in 2008.

Boy it's a hot afternoon. The kids are away with my ex, my stepdaughters are here (Hana visiting over the weekend). The Diver is taking a nap, after Tweeting how depressed he has been after weeks of not going diving. Other than that, it has been quiet.

Quiet, and a bit melancholic.

sticks and stones

...may break my bones / But words will never hurt me

Now that's certainly not me. I'd take sticks and stones any day.

In my previous marriage, I was emotionally and later on physically abused, although for a short period of time. If you ask me today, if I remember being beaten up or not or whether it had hurt or not.... I can barely remember anything. I couldn't even remember where and how I was hit.

But I still remember the nasty things he said about me. Every consonant, every bit of it.

Like I said, I'd take sticks and stones any day. And on that note, I wish all Mothers out there a Happy Mother's Day. Love yourself, and then you'll be able to love others unconditionally :)

snobbery hobnobbery

Too much snobbery is going around these days. And funnily, it can take on many shapes and forms. Macam2 la.. ada food snobbery, brand snobbery, work snobbery, music snobbery even friendship snobbery. I know I'm guilty of some... and I hate to admit it, but as I get older I try to come to terms with it and discard all these negativities.

Well, probably my pet peeve is food snobbery. Don't you just hate it when someone says "Oh, I don't eat any leftovers, doesn't matter 1 day ke 2 days keee..." Now let me ask you something... TAK PERNAH MAKAN KAT KEDAI MAMAK KE?? HELLOO??? Last time I checked, this person thoroughly enjoys having roti canai at mamak shops. And please, if you're on a diet.. and you don't take rice or whatever.. don't go "Ewww.. Rice?? Oh I stay away from rice, it's fattening" while someone is enjoying their nasi campur with gusto. That's just plain rude. If you don't eat a certain type of food, and find is disgusting to your taste buds.. just SHUT THE FUCK UP WILL YA?

Oh, one more pet peeve (byk plak pet peeve aku nih) friendship snobbery. All these talk about oh I am friends of anak so and so or bini so and so Tan Sri, Tun, Dato' Seri bullshit drives me up the wall. I MIGHT be guilty of mentioning this sometimes but hey, most of the time it's just fact-stating and not a form of showing off. Some people will go on and on and on and namedrop whoever they could just to earn points and look good, and some even stoop so low and do this just to get into exclusive clubs. Pathetic.

Lest we go down the depressing road. Let me end with this snippet of Cik Kam, which relates to friendship snobbery, in a way. Kalau tak relevant pun korang baca je lah.

Cik Kam frantically waves at me, and shows a piece of flyer:

Me: Apa tu? Seminar?
Cik Kam: Ha.. kau tak nak gi ke Seminar on (something i can't recall) and kau tau tak yang jadi Speaker dia ni ha.. ni... Yang Mulia Raja beb... kau tak kenal ke ni, cuba tengok...
Me: Raja Nazrin ke? Raja Petra?
Cik Kam: Err.. Raja Mohamad.. apa ntah ni.. tak kesahla tapi dia Yang Mulia tau!! Yang Mulia!

Turned out it's just some obscure dude with a Raja title. And Cik Kam thought he was some kind of a celebrity royalty just because of the Yang Mulia.

Sekian.

ye lah yelahhhhh update la niiiii

Aku dah naik menyampah kalau orang mention the word BLOG. Hahaha. Yeah, whenever we have our usual makan and lepak sessions, The Diver dan juga Usual Suspects yang lain akan comment how that I HAVE BEEN COMPLETELY IGNORING MY BLOG.

I can completely put the blame on so many things, as usual. (Facebook, Twitter, work, diving, jaga laki aku, jaga anak, melantak, Cityville, the list goes on)

But yeah I have been completely ignoring this. Even as I typed "jazz..ma.." dalam history pun dah takde noks. The thing is that soooo many things have been happening and I don't even know where or how to even start writing.

Anyway, since love life aku dah tak scandalous lagi and since I did the entries on Cik Kam.. ramailah orang tanya2 bila aku nak cerita pasal Cik Kam lagi... kekeke.. Ramai peminat Cik Kam ni rupanya eh.

Aku just nak hapdet kat sini yang Cik Kam and I have become sort of "friends" la jugak. Sebabnya, aku rasa dia takut ngan aku selepas aku sembor dia banyak2 kali pasal banyak2 benda. Ada je dia nak tolong aku. So, aku memang kena jadi blue hippo dan friends la jugak ngan dia. Senang beb, segala benda aku taichi kat dia. Benda2 yang tak melibatkan otak la.

Free labour beb, siapa tak nak? Dahla department aku ni kekurangan hands and legs.

OKlah, nanti la nak fikir citer2 juicy dan kelakar Cik Kam nih.

Jgn cakap aku tak update blog ni yer. And sorry la bahasa Rempit sikit ni. I overloaded on carbs during lunch.

where did 2010 go?

Without realising it my Cik Kam episodes dah basi and it's already November.


So much has happened. My sister and her husband who are residing in Japan came back to visit us for 9 days in October. Spent a good 3 days in Tioman. It was too short of a trip though! I hope she comes back again in January for our brother's commissioning.


That Tioman trip was our last dive trip of the season because the island is now closed for monsoon. I logged my 70th dive too. That was a nice accomplishment for an overweight wuss like me.


We also had a supercool Halloween do at Rumah Momok :) Thanks to The Diver who's always a great sport when it comes to Halloween. Don't you just love how our window looked from outside? I'm sure we freaked a few people out!

This year went by with a breeze. It feels good that November's here, although for the past few weeks we had like a couple of exhibitions, one going on now and next week I have an event in JB. It's all good.

I can't wait till December comes. I'm missing Christmas already.

Oh, and The Diver is now away somewhere on a rig offshore Sabah. God willing, I will be seeing him on Saturday night :)

Till then, enjoy November peeps!

cerita cik kam episod aidilfitri

To all my Blog readers (macam la ramai) and friends, I hope all of you had a wonderful Raya. I sure as hell did, spending my first Raya at the inlaws in Shah Alam and second Raya onward in Batu Pahat and then diving in Tioman.

Ah well, let's not dwell in it anymore. We've had too many blog entries on lemangs and rendangs and maaf zahir batins.

I came to the office after the long Raya break only to be entertained with more Cik Kam stories. I hope these will make your day. It sure did mine.

Story #1

Cik Kam punya kereta had an accident over the Raya break, apparently she bumped her car into the car in front of hers.

Cik A: Kesian kau, kereta accident ye? Kau langgar kereta apa?
Cik Kam: Ala.. ko tau tak, kereta aku langgar kereta Saga yang dah RENOVATE tu.

Story #2

Cik Kam: Eh eh.. poppy ni pun pakai kopiah macam orang Islam kan...
Cik A: Poppy?? Poppy tu apa?
Cik Kam: Ish, poppy ni ha... (shows a picture of the Pope in the newspaper)

Story #3

Cik Kam reads an e-mail circulated among some officemates with regards to what to buy for a friend's wedding and asks:

"Cik A, lingerie tu apa?"


Sekian la cerita Cik Kam untuk kali ni. For first time readers, aku tak suka kutuk orang tau and selalu kalau the stories above happen to any other person, aku akan membetulkan grammar, sebutan dan sebagainya lah... Tapi dengan Cik Kam.... pi mamposlah. Kau kutuk2 orang gemuk, tanya aku pakai makeup ori ke tak, eksyen ada 2 Blackberry tapi tak reti pakai and konon dah travel London, Australia, bagai.. tapi kalau setakat England pun tahap budak Standard 1. Sorry babe!

And oh, lagi satu. Kenapa aku boleh lupa kan yang ini:

Story #4

Cik Kam's friend asked why she wears braces now, sebab gigi dia bukannya jongang pun, jarang ke apa ke.

She answered, "Eh kau tak tau ke, sekarang kan TREND."

Sekian, terima kasih and selamat menyambut the rest of the Syawal month.