I haven't been cryptic in a while. It's been moons since I last posted something that can be deciphered differently by different readers. Well here goes...
Jealousy.
Damn I hate that word. But I sho' am a jealous person. I might not show it sebab aku perasan cool and will always laugh if off, or sleep it off, or eat it off, depending on the level of jealousness - but I am deep down a green-eyed monster. But dammit, aku takkan admit aku jealous so aku akan buat cranky or wolf down a tub of Ben & Jerry's.
Dulu, I went out with a guy whose work requires him to hang out among celebs, party all night, organize happening events and entertain those who need to be entertained. I was OK. Until one day my insecurity got the best of me, so I decided to end it.
Itu dulu.
Now I am so much more secure of myself. Heheh. Cheh. Well, now at least, if I found out my partner is cheating on me, I have learnt to say "Your loss, ingat aku tak boleh cari yang lain?" Instead of trying to jump off a building or crying my eyes out in bed.
The Diver has a lot of female friends, like, REALLY good looking female friends. Korang tengok la Facebook dia (don't bother if you're not on his FB friend list cuz his is only accessible and searchable to ones on his friend list je). Berlambak awek cun. Someone asked me once, "Kau tak jealous ke?" What is there to be jealous about la... I'm not jealous at all. Not jealous, but CAUTIOUS. Nampak tu...?? Perkataan in CAPS tu???
Well, I have a few guy friends too, and I hope The Diver is OK with that. Even a couple of ex bf's and maybe one who had a crush on me when I was single. But we're platonic friends. One rule that I sometimes use to emphasize the "platonicity" of a relationship is to use the "aku - engkau" pronoun when I converse with certain men. It's like a "dont mess with me" unwritten rule of conversation don't you think so?
Some people use terms of endearment like "Baby", "Honey", "Darling" to people they call friends. Which I sometimes am guilty of too, but now dah tak guna dah la because you know why la kan... Terms like that can be misconstrued as flirting. Especially those yang very the perasan la kan.
Damn. It's that time of the month la... so I don't really actually know what this posting is all about actually and The Diver is napping so aku bosan giler nih.
Hmm.. or maybe there is a meaning behind this greenish-hued posting? *evil grin*
13 comments:
Once upon a time dulu, aku pun used kata-ganti-diri aku-engkau with a certain someone. All the way to after being married, at which point we changed our ways...
I-you feels more lovey-dovey and gentle, while aku-engkau feels more ganas and wild....
Donchu agree?
Haha. Jaga-jaga....
Gomba, you dengan Liverpool Babe ni special case lah...
As for me, aku tak boleh imagine la keganasan di atas katil kalau menggunakan pronouns "aku dan engkau". Camne tuh? Mwahahaha
aku pun tahu jealous jugak..cuma suka buat bodo je. macam cool sgtlah kiranya. tapi si dia tu kalau jealous cam cipan. like..kenapa u nak naik train gi KLCC dengan dia tapi dengan i malas. what the ???? tapi kau cool lah mimin..i wish i can be like you.
hahahahahahahahaha aku pun kadang kadang jeles jugak tapi nak buat macam mana? buat bodo sudah lah.... btw, din pun napping beside me... (as usual)
masa kau tulis blog ni kau tengah jelouse ke jazz? heheeh :-p
nachos, benda2 jealous macam cipan tu yang dangerous tu. That was one of the reasons why i left my stupid ex hubby. Dgn office mates pun dia jeles. That's verrrry dangerous and extremely unhealthy in a relationship (ni aku hint ni...)
aiz, somehow aku takleh imagine kau jeles tapi i dun believe you if you say you buat bodo because you the ultimate drama queen, woman... BTW, cantik ler gambar awak punya bulu mata gam gajah.
meandmylife... hehehe.. aku bukan jealous masa tulih ni... ntah.. apasal ntah... mungkin meroyan sikit.
aku nya case pun susah....sebab aku tak tau nak jeles kat sapa...& sbb apa aku nk kena jeles...hmmmmmmm
beb, ko nya jeles ni high-pitch ka low-pitch..haha
gomba, kalau pakai kanda-dinda pun ok la jugak...
aiz yg cantik,
hg nya case, aku tak payah nk habaq la hahahahahaha
nachos, hai...naik train pun jeles ka..apa la kan..
Sebenarnya, aku pun tengah jeles kat kau ni sebab kau takyah bangun pagi-pagi pegi kerja.
Dengan laki aku plak, aku kena lah tutup sebelah mata ngan sebelah telinga sebab dia dok jauh sekarang, kan... So, pura-pura tak jealous le. Kalau terlebih jealous, mesti sakit jantung terus.
Hahah, like you said... it's not jealous... it's cautious. Ye la kan, for our sake too, apa org cakap? Better be save than sorry? :P
Oh... and then that part aku-engkau. Tu kira dah platonic gila la tu... hehe. Kalau tak faham2 jugak, ntah la.
PS: Org cakap kan, jeles tandanya sayang :D
rainmaker, hehehe. bagus tau kalau takde orang nak dijeleskan dan menjeleskan...tapi aku takleh imagine kalau kau jeles? hehehehe
dnas, i think by next month i cannot wake up late-late anymore... huhuhu... oh yeah, awak sekarang long distance relationship, very bad for jealous people wor. but i know you cool, cuz you budak STF hehe
faiez, oh yeah better be safe than sorry. and also my Diver ni memang ada feminine streak, hence the wide array of female friends he has. (tak nak la cakap dia gatal kan nanti dia marah i..)
Confession: The Diver actually posted something but I had rejected it :)
sebab tak jealous lah LDR i kena rampas. damn. but ok... i let her free, if she comes back. then she is mine. tapi macam tak je kot. whatever lah!
faisal, bunga bukan seekor. no worries, mate!
bunga bukan seekor? er. hehe. jangan marah... but yes there are a lot of things i need to think about. choosing one is not really a priority at the moment.
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