hello 2012

Sometimes I wish the Mayans' prediction would come true. Just for the sole reason that my loved ones and I can all die at the same time!

What a morbid way to start a 2012 post but that's how I felt today. All negativities aside, my aim this year is to stay calmer and mature in spite of all the things that are going on at home or at the office.

I officially turned 37 on the 27th of December, so that's good. Should the world end in December 2012 I wouldn't live to see 38.

Finally, all the kids are in REAL school already, with Yunus coming back home today telling me he wishes that he's in Year Three instead of One. Ambitious lad. My stepdaughter who's staying with me will sit for her SPM, so this year is an important year for her and I wish her all the best.

The Diver and I went through several ups and mostly downs in 2011 and I hope things will be better this year. Being a woman, and a sensitive one at that, there are things that haunt me still and that I believe has caused some strains in our relationship. Believe me, I wish I was stronger and can just erase the things that hurt. Having said that, I hope both of us can change and tolerate each other more this year, because at the end of the day, our quarrels don't usually last more than 24 hours. And I know I can't live without him more than a day.

Here's to a better 2012.

And I leave you with a picture of when the sun has set on December 31st 2011, taken from a hotel room where we spent our New Year's eve.

december

For the past few years, December, which I will always openly admit to be my favorite month - my birthday, Christmas, Year-End sales, New Year's eve et al, has always brought heartaches and challenges.

This year, a recurrent wound presented itself in the form that is almost unimaginable to my emotional state.

And I just have to remind myself, time and again, that I am a fighter.

seksualiti pun nak dimerdekakan?

Let me open up this posting by professing my love to the Lesbian, Gay, Bi and TransGender (LGBT) friends in my circle. They have been the loveliest bunch, and most times, the most sensitive and supportive when I need shoulders to cry on.

I love them to bits.

But I do think that this Seksualiti Merdeka event coming up will only breed more animosity than understanding between the straights and the LGBT communities. Why do I say that?

Look around us. We are in Malaysia, we are predominantly Muslim, generally conservative and still culturally green. We still argue about the haram and halalness of Tabasco Sauce for God's sake! So why do you think that people will embrace Seksualiti Merdeka with open arms?

To most Malaysians, this event is quite a shocker. Even Buletin Utama called it a pesta seks bebas or something to that extent. See how the objective of Seksualiti Merdeka is not understood or skewed before it even started?

As Malaysians, I think we have been pretty tolerant of LGBTs. Case in point would be Azwan Ali (I don't even know which category this dude is in) and the many celebrities that are known to be gay - they still can cari makan peacefully in this country. And most women prefer their Mak Andams to be "Pak Andams" instead because admit it, transgenders have the creativity of a woman and the strength of a man. They are blessed that way.

So what Merdeka are they referring to? Aren't we Merdeka enough? If you talk about kissing in public, not even LGBTs get stared at - even straight couples aren't expected to do that because it's just against our culture.

Pang Khee Teik, one of the founders of Seksualiti Merdeka tweeted "While many LGBTs are kicked fm homes, abused, blackmailed, arrested, KEEPING QUIET IS NOT AN OPTION."

First of all being kicked from homes, abused, blackmailed, arrested are not only LGBT-specific issues. Arrested? Kalau kau transvestites menjual kat Chow Kit maybe so, but so far even in my little quaint hometown of Batu Pahat, cross dressers can lepak all they want and not be arrested.

And to hold this event during Aidiladha celebrations? It's just poor taste. If you can't respect other people's feelings, then why do you expect them to respect yours?

So there.

Your sexuality is your choice. But remember, you can't impose your beliefs or your sexuality upon others. You can't force people to accept who you are.

And most of all, sexuality is about what happens behind closed doors, so just let us keep it that way.

turn me on, turn me off

I tried blogging from my iPad using BlogPress. But that app turned out crap. Oh well.

Anyway, back to what I wanted to write about. I think I've had enough of being pissed with Cik Kam, because it will just put a damper on everything else, and I'm sure people don't wanna be reading about things that are just downright depressing.

Let's just go back to when I write about the sheer idiocy and kebodohsombongan Cik Kam, like my earlier posts. That's more fun.

OK a couple of weeks back, I had a friend that I met on Twitter, Jaja (of www.jajaradzwan.com fame) over at my place to do a hairwrap. It looked like this:


Cool eh?

So then the next day when I went to the office, Cik Kam pointed at my hair and said, "Ada something la kat rambut kau!" I looked at her and then just replied curtly, "Oh that's a hairwrap."

That's it. I didn't want to prolong the conversation, thinking that I want to spare her the embarassment of asking more stupid questions. Because every time we engage in some form of conversation, she will end up making an ass of a fool out of herself. EVERY TIME.

Kawan tak puas hati, and Cik Kam added, "Itu untuk apa? Buat apa pakai hairwrap tu?"

At this point I got pretty annoyed because she was in fact, interrupting my conversation with a friend.

OKlah, kau nak sangat kan kena ngan aku. So I replied, "Hairwrap ni, bila kau tarik sekali, aku TURN ON (tugging once on my hairwrap). Bila tarik dua kali, aku TURN OFF. (tugging twice)"

Her jaw dropped, and looked at me in awe and amazement. Macam nampak alien.

Aku repeat lagi statement TURN ON, TURN OFF tu. This time, aku sebut sebijik sebijik macam ajar toddler bercakap.

Mulut Cik Kam still ternganga and on her face I could see that she was thinking, how can a mere mortal be turned on and off with a tug of a mishmash of colorful thread.

I walked away.

Hampeh kau Cik Kam, mesti malam tu kau Google pasal hairwrap, kan?

crap

testicles


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

cik kam strikes back

Hari ni aku meletup.

I guess I've had it with dealing with Cik Kam's stupidity and arrogance. This was all pent up anger. Had it been someone else who had done what she did earlier this morning, maybe I'll just dismiss it completely. But it was her... it was Cik Kam.. the only person yang membolehkan aku keluar segala weapons of mass destruction aka NECLEUR weapon bak kata fatso from Kuantan tu.

Actually over the past year or so, lifestyle si Kam has changed quite a lot. Lifestyle ye, bukan STYLE. Style kam dot com masih sama. She's a bit on the lavish side, eh, bukan a bit.. A LOT. Lots of people at the office were getting suspicious of where she was getting all the funds from. London, Paris, Jakarta, Singapore, Bali all in a year. Ada orang kata hanky panky, kickbacks, etc. Personally, aku rasa it's a combination of a whole lot of things.

So that one, I'll just leave it to the one Up There to judge lah. But yes, fishy yes very very.

Anyway what pisses me off is more of her incapability to use her brain when she works. This won't have an effect on me if she's just a clerical staff or a non-exec. Masalahnya, dia ni sudah suruh boss promote diri dia as Senior Exec. Hamek. Department BD tau, specialty - Marketing. If i'm not mistaken lah.

Nak kata pergi marketing kat Pasar Tani pun aku rasa dia tak pernah. Inikan lagi nak buat Marketing untuk a company such as this.

Takpelah, kalau baghal sangat pun, kalau ada team effort apa salahnya. There are a lot of donkeys working here anyway, but they're friendly, down-to-earth, wiling to learn donkeys. But she will never show that she is bodoh, konon tau buat semua.. Whenever she needs help, she will email as if she's giving out instructions...even to people who are more senior than her.

So that's why bila dia slack sikit je, it sends my blood boiling like mad.

Tak payah cerita lagilah what happened pagi tadi...cukup la aku bagi backgrounder kenapa aku makin nyampah kat beruk ni right now.

To be continued lah ye....

goodbye bali hai

When I first started this blog, it was a place for me to vent, as I was going through a bad patch in my life. After a while it evolved to a bland online journal of sorts, a record of the things that I do, places that I visit. But now, it seems like I only update my blog when I'm pissed with people.

This blog has gotten from bad to worse!

Anyhow, it is already almost end of October and last weekend we closed off diving season in Tioman since monsoon is around the corner.

I have two more working weeks and then we are off to the place where I truly truly can find solace.... Mabul - Sipadan!