Somebody asked why.
Why do I "tell the whole world" about what's bugging me, my supposedly private moments, private thoughts?
Maybe that someone does not understand the whole concept of blogging.
Well, I don't either.
I know why I blog, though.
First, I don't have enough money for a psychiatrist. With three kids and a recent big D plus a very complicated love/non-love life, a job that drives every ounce of energy out of my being, and my moonlighting attempts at making ends meet - I deserve a session or two with the shrink at times. I think I've watched too many movies and you know the scene where the psychiatrist always tells the patient to write things in a journal. Do real shrinks give that advice too? So here I am, writing away on my blog. As per advise from TV shrinks the world over.
Second, I've always been a writer. At certain phases of my life, I've always kept journals. They're all destroyed though. It was never my intention to recollect the past - those were just my avenues for venting out.
Third, I am a compulsive shopper. If I have time on my hands, I'll scramble to the nearest mall. Maybe under the pretext of having a cuppa, but then again I will secretly saunter to make an unnecessary purchase or two (or even three at times). So now when I have time, I blog. I refuse to go to the mall. Except when coaxed. Or enticed. Or when I'm upset with a certain someone. Oh yes, I'm sick like that. So, better blog, kan?
And fourth, I have so much work to do on this laptop that I need a bit of a digression. Honestly, my to do list never ends, and all of my work is in this lappie. So in between my media releases, timelines, writeups, copy for ads or company profiles, - here I am - on the Blogger dashboard.
Sometimes the things that I blog about is not in its entirety. I have secrets too. I have rotting bodies and skeletons in my closet as well. So no, this is not wholly me. It may be pieces of my life, but there are other bigger pieces that I choose to keep private.
So there. To sum it all up, I blog because I'm broke and I need to keep my sanity.
Oh wow.
19 comments:
And Meen, you should also write, if the person doesn't like to read what you write, then DON'T read! At least we are being honest about how we feel and not pretending. Betul tak?
I agree with Kak Spena.. if people don't like what we wrote, then stop reading. As simple as that. We don't have to justify why we blog. It's a free country (sort of!) and it's our own blogspace anyway..
I used to have a journal too. But one day while I was still in the UK, my ex found it, secretly read it and later used whatever I wrote against me when we argued. So I stopped temporarily, until I became single again. But nowadays, due to my laziness, all my deepest thoughts largely remained in this cluttered brain of mine instead of in the journal! :)
Mimin,
yes, every blog reader should know that what we put up in our blogs are just small portions of thoughts that we have in our heads at that particular moment. Only people who've been with us for years have the right to say that they know us well.
I never judge anybody by their blog postings.
i used to blog myself.. like you said, write journal.. till i found out, the more i write, the more i hate whom it may concerns.. then i stopped..
now i just focus on myself and my 3boys.. full time.. but still ada masa untuk berkawan..
- yasmin
Quote of the day:
"It may not be your fault for being down, but it's got to be your fault for not getting up."
who cares what others think, keep on bloggig ya!
U gave good reasons on why u blog. Hehehe...Writing is very therapeutic kan?
omg..this compulsive shopping thing runs in the family rupanya...hahah..at least i'm not alone :p
spena, exactamundo. some people are just so an4l about what they read on my blog. oh hell, who cares.
hazyr, right on. what your ex did is so not right, though. tapi takpekan, sebab dah ex!
dnas, you're right - that's why I'm most comfortable with you guys. cuz we've known each other since we were what - 13??? not to say that I'm not comfy with my new friends!
yasmin, yes it does have that effect on me too sometimes. but for me, I just need to keep on writing (for now!)
nour, thanks dear!
cosmic, it's VERY therapeutic. and very calming.
za, you are SO not alone! by the way, i was in JB and found this really cool factory outlet at HP. they've got zara, CK, JLo! in addition to the usual abercrombies n stuff.
Meen, kau baru jumpa the Factory outlet thingy in HP? I've been buying my Nike tops and bottoms all from there. They have really good prices at times!!
alahai.. how come me from Johor dun kno about this HP..
- yasmin
kak meen,
you're definitely not obliged to justify or explain to people about what you write and why you write all these.
i totally agree with kak spena and kak dnas.
i confide in my partner-in-crime frm stf too about my life, myself and all. no questions asked, no judgements between us. she's the only person who understands. we basically grew up together during the 5years in stf, didn't we? i think that's why the bond is strong....
aiyeee! outlet in JB? adeh...lagi seronok gi HP ni kang. :p
spena, this outlet yang depan parkson tu kan? Ground floor? how come I just discovered it? ARGH.
yasmin, oh that's our best kept non-secret :)
tissot... ya.. growing up together like one big happy and rowdy family helped a lot, huh?
za, that place is da bomb la. i found a place where they sell like really cute designer lookalike tops as well..
Hehehe....aku biasalah.Any shops that sells sports attire, I would be interested more in it. They always display Nike and Adidas on the front. I can't wear all the designers' coz its too tiny for me!!
one day you'll write
FROM SHOPOHOLIC TO BLOGOHOLIC
by Jazz Sofea Kainsela
wakakaka
well I reckon you're good writer
;-)
i totally get you. paling people don't understand would be that they assume what we write is the complete representation of the writer when we wrote what we felt at that particular point of time... the subject matter is very specific and we may not feel the same way about similar subjects some other time...
writing is just so good for the soul and since we don't blog anonymously, if course there are things we don't write as well... we know better than to put everything out in the open... benda2 yang general tu, nothing wrong in writing and telling the whole world cos some people may relate to what we feel/going thru and you'd be surprised at what others can learn from our experience. many a times, people think they're alone in a problem until they open their eyes and look up, and see that life ain't that bad...
spena, i was in JB but too damn broke this month to do any shopping :(
lord budak, god willing, i will quit my job and dabble in chick lit! ada orang nak beli ke? I doubt it...heheheh... maybe I should write more controversial stuff
cookie, i've been busy this whole week and i realize that whenever i can't blog i'll be all edgy and stuff. thank god for blogs!
I now realise why I don't blog.. If I did, I'd have no time for much else because I'd be spending too much time penning down and expressing my disgust, amusement, appal over certain ppl who can't seem to figure out wtf to do with their lives and at the same time are so intent on disallowing others to move on with theirs.. Sigh... Life's a bitch, and so are they..
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